So yeah. No internet at home til tomorrow, hopefully.

In the meantime, I’ve got a question… how many times does one keep asking, if all you ever hear is ‘no’?

Orson Scott Card is, without a doubt, brilliant.

In every book of his that I’ve read, there is a strong sense of…. heresy. The ideas he presents feel heartfelt… like actual personal complaints he has with God. Complaints I’ve had myself. But throughout his books, he ends up inevitably coming to the conclusions that God is indeed, Good. And the things he does truly are for the Best.

In the Enders series, its the anti-religious group, the Speakers For The Dead. They are played as being enemies of Religion. But it ends on a very serious religious note – God is everywhere, and not always in ways you’d think.

Then the Homecoming series with its characters who quite openly defy the only concept of a God that they have, railing against it for its seeming apathy, and then again for the way it selected individuals above others, and finally for its inadequacy. And then they learn the truth, that God is real and that he loves his people, but not enough to keep them from being who they are, even if it means they stray from his path.

And all the while he creates characters with such depth… you get so attached to them, that when they fail, you feel their grief and their shame. When they succeed, you rejoice with them. All the while you keep turning pages, until the nearly 500 page book you just started is over. And its 5 in the morning.

le sigh.

Had a good time with Melinda tonight. Been a while since we hung out last. It always seems like we’re better friends the more time we actually spend together, physically. It’s when we try to keep in touch online or with phones that it starts to suck. All the more reason she should try to start hanging out with me and my friend. Alexis, too, for that matter.

Anyways, its late.

ok, so that last entry was part of an analogy.

so like. see. it goes like this. I was reading this article about a 4 wheeled, Segway. But I was perplexed – they engineered the segway so that it was made to not fall over. Why put 4 wheels on it?

So then we were talking about how George Bush was the only person I’d ever heard of that had fallen off of one. So of course, I had to explain that it was possible to fall off of one, but it was made so that it wouldn’t tip over of its own accord. So I explained its like a ball – you can’t really tip over a ball, but you can fall off of one if you really want to.

you can’t tip over a ball.

Ok, Lisa is no longer the coolest cashier at Petco.

That title now belongs to Alexis.

That is all.

so… say you’re lonely. and also shy…

nevermind.

Dude, I drank a lot last night. It was pretty funny.

anyway, its ni-night time.

I can’t get this song out of my head.

I talk to you;
It’s cold out there
But i’m telling you;
I’m lonely too.

dude. ok… so like there’s this chick… and she’s the lead singer from Rilo Kiley.

And then there’s this chick. And she’s the leading female voalist for The Postal Service.

AND THEY’RE THE SAME PERSON!

IT’S CRAZY!

[space geek mode = on]

Woohooo! Today Space Ship One/White Knight landed its second flight in two weeks to qualify to win the Ansari X-Prize ($10 million).

They’ve got a pretty neat setup, where one plane carries the other off the ground, then the larger one (White Knight) drops the smaller one (SS1) which then rockets off into Low Earth Orbit.

Congratulations, Scaled Composites.

And special thanks to Paul Allen (formerly) of Microsoft! This guy donated about $30 million dollars to Scaled Composites so they could actually make the flight.

Now why is it a big deal that some guys spent $30 million to win 10 million? Well, they’re the first guys who weren’t part of a government agency to do it. That’s a pretty impressive feat. From there it’s not too much of a stretch that they can start working on actual Orbital flights, or even lunar landings – something NASA hasn’t done in decades.

Anyway.

[Space geek mode = off]

yay, it works again! huzzah! I just had a big ass margarita! w000!

my default user account on win2k insists I install directX under the admin account, but the admin account says I already did it… fuck it and fuck my current lack of Super Mario World.

w0000 speakeasy. its all fast n shit… I wanna do some online gaming, but no one is fucking online, and half-life is taking a god damn forever to copy over

hey, fuckin fajitas and margaritas at my place next weekend.

Rilo Kiley r0x0rz. Thanks Alexis. Anyways, check them out. Butterfly Effect is pretty cool, too. Yeah. And I finally got around to cleaning up my plant tank a bit… I’ll see if I can’t take some pictures of its shit, not that anyone cares, heh

Static IP, yay

Ok bye.