Fear != Inexperience

I gave it some thought last night, (you know, the long sleepless kind) and it occured to me; I don’t think fear is the problem…

I think that its inexperience… I have no idea what I’m doing, therefor nothing ever happens. Rather than fumbling around, I just wait… until I know, until someone gives me that experience. Because, really, I have no idea how to go about it.

Of course, there’s a small amount of fear, there always is, I think. You don’t want to mess anything up, and you’re afraid you might. But its not the driving factor; at least, it hasn’t been for a long time.

I saw a movie last night with Christopher Walken and another guy whom I don’t know but I know I’ve seen before. This guy (Jimmy was his character) walks by this girl in a club. They make eye contact and he goes over to her. He says to her, “Are you in love?”

“Why?”, she asks.

“Because, if you’re in love, I won’t bother. I’m not the type of man that would get in the way of another man’s happiness”

Ok, so it sounded pretty smooth at the time. But you gotta admit it has a certain style (despite it being a movie). That says “I know what I’m doing, and what I want.” It shows experience… not two failed on-line relationships. Anyways, its way past time for me to get on with it, and just blunder my way through it.

Hmmmm

so its about 1 am, at dad’s house and I think I’ve finally got this formatted in a way I somewhat like (not sure about the color scheme just yet…)

Looking around for a way to use Frames, but it doesn’t look like it’s possible (or at least easy). I’d really like that bottom banner to be stuck on the bottom of the page….

Anyways, let me know what you think… about the colors, or the layout or whatever…. I’m going to start adding actual content soon….